Sidoarjo is so.much.fun. Too bad it’s almost ending. The working hour isn’t as crazy as RSUA / Soetomo, there are lots of level 4a cases (GP competency) in both clinic (we usually get to do Ante Natal Care, learn basic USG, do pap-smear & IVA test, get to see simple cases like myoma, cyst, prolapses) & VK (enough per-vaginam partus for each DM), and lots of chances to independently do things, if you’re into it. I mean, I’m more of a thinker than a doer so this kind of stase practically haunts me. You’re forced to be active, brave, initiative in order to get some “tindakan” like helping out labor, hecting, vaginal touche, rectal touche, episiotomy, etc. I think I’m far too clumsy & unskilled to handle those, so most of the time I settle for just being an “observer“. The thought of me having to battle my way through other DM, nurses, & midwife to get one chance to do “tindakan” (it almost feels like treasure hunt), is just horrible. You either kill or get killed there’s no in between. No hesitation. No comfort zone. So yep, smile and endure. I used to feel so stressed out like how are my friends able to overcome their fear & move on & do things upon things fearlessly? but then it dawns on me that each one of us, even as a doctor, has our own career path. And if I don’t excel in one aspect then it’s simply not the kind of road I wanna go down to (i.e. being a surgeon / anesthesiologist/ gynecologist) ? There are a lot of specialties, lot of options. Who knows what the future holds?
But even if this is not my cup of tea, RSUD Sidoarjo manages to keep me happy and smiley; the first time in months that I don’t feel anxious to go home. Located in the heart of Sidoarjo, it’s a rather small hospital for a type B health center. But it’s green, compact, and lately the weather is chilly-in a very good melancholic way and I love it here. The architecture! Kinda reminds me of my hometown. You know the kind of feeling you get when you’re stepping into somewhere old, familiar, but also sophisticated at the same time? I don’t know how to put it into words really. The people are super nice and friendly, they don’t talk aggressively (as many Surabaya people do). The security, even the parking ticket guy, they’re always like hi! How are you! Thank you! Good morning! 🙂
On the first day here we’re given clear directions about our job desc, what to do and not do, simple introduction about obgyn, and few words from the head of department. We didn’t feel as clueless as we did the first day back in RSUA, our first ever obgyn round. I think first day is like the most important aspect, like if it’s ruined then it will affect your view throughout the entire round. We work side by side with midwife, nurses-in training & medstudent from another university, and they’re all SO nice I’m touched. I feel like I’m already a part of them instead of newcomer who’s only staying for two weeks. Although we don’t get case report, morning report, & kuliah klasik as much as we do in RS. Dr. Soetomo, the supervisors here are all kind & informative.
The long drive through the highway is my absolute favorite! In order to get here I have to drive approximately 20 km through Surabaya-Waru highway. It’s a new experience. I was hesitant at first, like “I’m no racer, my speed limit is 90-100 km/h, and I hate big big trucks. How am I gonna survive?” Turned out I was doing okay. Now I’m enjoying.every.single.minute of it. There’s a sense of maturity & freedom in it. I love the trees, the smooth road, the clouds, the horizon, the wind, my grip on the steering wheel… Happiness actually comes from the simplest things. I honestly don’t wanna leave!
PS: Of course I have to make special playlist titled DRIVE (for when I’m feeling ecstatic, it’s filled with up beat, rocky songs) & HIGHWAY (for one of them cloudy days).